I don’t know why it is, but I don’t care about money. I am happy to help out where I can if someone needs money, even to my own detriment. But the truth is, I am not about money. And maybe that’s why I don’t have any. LOL!
The money will come. It always does.
The money will go. It always does.
In the meantime, this is a great tune to dance to… so I’m gonna do that…
…and she found herself in the middle of a swirl of unexpected things. She tried to muddle through. She kept moving her feet, and the rest of her, but she seemed to be getting nowhere. Since this wasn’t working, she decided to stop moving her feet, and the rest of her, and just BE.
Whatever would come, would come. And she would deal with it then. In the meantime, she decided to back away slowly and keep her head down. Self preservation is important. Serenity is important. Mindfulness is important. So she decided to move slowly and wait for everything to fall into place… like it always does. She was so grateful she remembered that part.
Sounds like a good option sometimes. Especially when things are coming at you faster than you can duck. You just want it to stop, to go away, to disappear. And that’s what I want.. I want all this shit to go away. But it won’t. …and I won’t either.
As hard as things are right now, and they are pretty freaking sucky, I don’t want to run away. I want to stand and face the fire. Because there is no one else to do this. This mountain of bullshit that is right in front of me is not going away. I’m going to have to shovel that shit. Yes, the whole fabulous mountain of it. And know what? I’m gonna.
This thing is not going away. If I want it to disappear, I’m going to have to do the work. And I want to do the work! Because I can’t leave it like it is, and there is no one else. And someone has to do it. And I know that I can. I want to see what it looks like without the mountain.
Mountain-Free. It’s what I’m gonna be.
Here’s to mountains, surmountable and otherwise.
Here’s to peace, found on the other side.
It’s hard to be your best in a spontaneous moment. We aren’t always thinking about our performance on life’s stage. We are thinking of survival in the moment. We do not think of how others may feel. We think of our immediate motivation.
Recently I have been watching a drama unfold, and mentally screaming “NOOOOOOOO!!!” ..to no avail. The hits just keep coming. It’s similar to how we “lost” poor Jon Snow at the end of Season 5. Alas, he’s but a character in a book, and of course on HBO. But these “actors” I’m referring to on life’s stage are facing inevitable conclusions, set in motion by their own hands. Like being on a train headed for a section where the track has been removed. The train WILL derail when it gets there. I think I would have had to exit prior to then if given the opportunity.
We always have the opportunity to make changes, but the opportunity must be seized. OPPORTUNITY DOESN’T KEEP KNOCKING! We may be players on a world stage, but we are designing many of the scenes years in advance. If you don’t like the scene you’re in, then it’s up to you to make the decisions and choices necessary to end up in a different scene. But the time to make that change is NOW.
Choices matter. They affect everyone around you. Don’t kid yourself. You are choosing the scenes of your life tomorrow, with the actions you take today.
I have come to realize that there is more to Blue Moon Sisters than my original thought process allowed. It has been frustrating to pretend that the waiting was good for me, but without it I may not have gotten the message of the rest of it. I don’t mean to imply that I know exactly where I’m headed with it, but at least I know there is MORE. More than I’d known and more than I’d dreamed.
I know everything works out. It’s all good. But being long on patience and short on action is a numbing cycle. I’ve been kind of numb for a while, so perhaps that is why I didn’t notice it. I think I’ve been treading water mentally and emotionally. I’m still in the same spot, but I’m now tired of the same spot. I’m tired of it, so I’m going to change it. The pieces are falling into place. I’m glad they’ll be ready when I get the go ahead. It won’t be long now.
I hope everyone had a great weekend! Blessings for your Monday.
Cold hands, warm heart. Um… okay. How about just plain cold. Hard to judge if someone’s hands are cold because of the weather or WHETHER it’s a sure sign that they have a warm heart. I think it’s easy to discern which type of heart someone has. It’s by their actions.
What many people do not realize is that even if they don’t know it, oftentimes their cold hearts are a subconscious decision that they accidentally made. Think about it… We all know someone who has had a hard life, and by many accounts should be a miserable, mean, cold-hearted person. Yet they are anything but cold. They are warm and loving and fun and happy. It’s because they realize the value of a lifetime. They understand that even if this is not the ideal life, it’s the only life they are going to get so they might as well LIVE and enjoy the life they have been given. These people are held in such high esteem by me personally. I have been blessed many times over in life, yet still find myself sidetracked by negativity of my own mind. I focus on the bad drive to work. I am annoyed by the headlines. I am saddened by humanity’s treatment of one another, and the notion that any of us are better than, or hold more value than someone else. Ewww… see? I already am thinking how sucky that is. But wait….
I am blessed. Yes, it’s a cold world. Yes, people will hurt you. Yes, shit happens that you can’t change. And you know what? That’s okay. That is how life works. Your job is to learn to be welcoming and warm to those you meet. We need to learn to forgive those who hurt us, because they are just lashing out because THEY have been hurt. That shit that just happened to hurt you? Learn the lesson it brought you – even if you don’t like it. That would be a waste of an opportunity. We learn everyday. Good, bad or ugly. We all learn and hopefully, we let it shape us in good ways. With empathy and not apathy. With hope and not despair. With right thinking rather than stinkin’ thinkin’ – which is all too easy to do.
I am blessed today by your presence. I thank those who are on this journey with me. I am grateful for the cold outside, because it gives me the opportunity to be warm on the outside to people who need warmth. And I am so grateful for the warm people who love me.