Keep Your Eyes on the Road

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This morning as I drove to work, I saw a sign on a pasture fence that read, “Now Boarding, Equestrian Facility” or something like that. I drive by it every day. There are horses in the pasture, with barn type buildings in the distance. It’s beautiful and peaceful.

As I glanced over, I thought to myself, “I can’t wait until I can afford to have horses.” And as I glanced back at the road, I heard the sound of my tires hitting the grids from the road’s edge notifying me that I was drifting left, onto the shoulder. I quickly corrected, and thought to myself, “Stay on the road.” And it seemed that was the answer to my mental thought. Someday I’ll have horses. Yeah… okay… just stay on the road you’re on. No time for horses.

I firmly believe that one day my road will lead to a horse or a horse farm, where a few horses can graze on green grass, safe from slaughter.  Even if they are just pasture ornaments – that’s fine with me. I do believe that will happen – but I do not see a means to that end right now. My hands are full, and kind of bound by the present moment. I can only keep doing what I am doing. Continuing on the road I’m on. My chosen path. The one that leads to me.

I can’t wait until I can afford to have horses. But it looks like wait, I will.

For The Love of Money….

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I don’t know why it is, but I don’t care about money.  I am happy to help out where I can if someone needs money, even to my own detriment.  But the truth is, I am not about money. And maybe that’s why I don’t have any. LOL!

The money will come. It always does.

The money will go. It always does.

In the meantime, this is a great tune to dance to… so I’m gonna do that…

Have a beautiful day. Money or not.

Peace.

Ready to run away??

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Sounds like a good option sometimes. Especially when things are coming at you faster than you can duck.  You just want it to stop, to go away, to disappear.  And that’s what I want.. I want all this shit to go away.  But it won’t. …and I won’t either.

As hard as things are right now, and they are pretty freaking sucky, I don’t want to run away. I want to stand and face the fire. Because there is no one else to do this.  This mountain of bullshit that is right in front of me is not going away. I’m going to have to shovel that shit.  Yes, the whole fabulous mountain of it.  And know what?  I’m gonna.

This thing is not going away.  If I want it to disappear, I’m going to have to do the work.  And I want to do the work! Because I can’t leave it like it is, and there is no one else.  And someone has to do it. And I know that I can.  I want to see what it looks like without the mountain.

Mountain-Free. It’s what I’m gonna be.

Cheers.
Here’s to mountains, surmountable and otherwise.
Here’s to peace, found on the other side.

I’m not running away…

There are people who need me…  ❤ and I love them…

Happy New Year!!! Happy New You!!! (I love commercials… she said, unconvincingly)

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So we made it through 2014… well I did.  We lost some people we love this year. That’s never easy. But that’s how life goes. Sometimes you win, sometimes you learn.

I have a decision to make with this whole Blue Moon Sisters thing.  I need to find a new host for the actual page. I need to purchase the equivalent of “Websites for Dummies” and actually make a webpage/website.  If I am going to continue on this whole idea, I am going to need to see what that actually looks like.

While this is true, I have realized and I understand that I do not have to make a decision right this second.  That gives me some time to breathe. This is different than actual procrastination. Sometimes things need to settle down and the little details will work themselves out.  This decision WILL be made, when the time comes. I’ve got a couple of weeks before I’m out of time. In my heart I know that, before that time arrives, I will know what my plan is. I will know what I need to do, how I need to do it, and where I feel it needs to go.

Sometimes it’s okay to wait to decide.

Happy 2015, friends! Make it a great year!

Winter’s Here!!!

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We got the first few flakes of snow for this winter. It was beautiful, I’m sure… if you were not in the car.  Overall not terrible, but people just lose their minds when the weather changes.  Just crazy.

I was glad to see it sticking. Even if only for a few hours, that small smattering of snow signals the change of seasons, and the turning of the wheel of the year. It’s a time to reflect. To hunker down, hibernate. Settle in for the winter. Riiiiiiight….

I believe we are supposed to do just that – settle in, reflect, and wait until spring comes again.  So far this fall we have had four birthdays, gotten lined up for swimming for the high school for our final year, the same with dancing at the high school, college midterms, repaired or replaced appliances or systems in the house, began decorating for Thanksgiving, which is next week.  Then are swim meets, driving to Florida for Christmas – taking the dog, and heading back before the new year. I’m tired just reading it back…

But it will be a grand time of family and friends, feasting and celebrating, love and laughter. By the time spring comes, we’ll be ready to step outside.

It helps to try to get outside any time you can during the winter. The rays of the sun still help to build Vitamin D and perhaps boost the spirits of we who suffer from SAD – Seasonal Affective Disorder. I recommend the spice turmeric, and if you can find it combined with black pepper, all the better! Airborne, Immune C, teas and lozenges, should all be on hand. Take care of yourself this winter.  Stay warm. Enjoy the time with those you love.

~ Peace

…and the hits just keep coming… Yes. It’s June.

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cha·os

ˈkāˌäs/

noun

noun: chaos; plural noun: chaoses

  1. complete disorder and confusion.

“snow caused chaos in the region”

synonyms: disorder, disarray, disorganization, confusion, mayhem, bedlam, pandemonium, havoc, turmoil, tumult, commotion, disruption, upheaval, uproar, maelstrom; More

muddle, mess, shambles, free-for-all;

anarchy, lawlessness, entropy;

informalhullabaloo, hoopla, train wreck, all hell broken loose

“police were called in to quell the chaos”

antonyms: order

o    Physics: behavior so unpredictable as to appear random, owing to great sensitivity to small changes in conditions.

o    the formless matter supposed to have existed before the creation of the universe.

o    Greek Mythology: the first created being, from which came the primeval deities Gaia, Tartarus, Erebus, and Nyx.

noun: Chaos

Origin: late 15th century (denoting a gaping void or chasm, later formless primordial matter): via French and Latin from Greek khaos ‘vast chasm, void.’

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If I were near a giant explosion I would hope to be able to duck into a doorway for some level of protection.  There is nothing, so much as chaos, going on for a few of us.  I am actually staggered at the level of “upheavalness” that is reigning supreme. I keep watching burning debris waft by from my doorway, wondering, thinking a zillion things. Like: there will be a lot of ambulances and firetrucks soon. What happened? Was this an accident? Is there still cell phone service? I don’t think I’ll make that meeting at noon. 

There are no accidents.  Sometimes life has a way of catapulting us right into the middle of where we belong.  Certainly a bloody violent way of maneuvering, but what do we want? Coddling or results?  Well, heck yes, we all say “results” but the devil is in the details.  However, happiness lives on the other side of that. We are not “stand on the sidelines” kind of gals.  We got the guts to make it through this.  Yet, our path lies through the fire.  On the other side of the chaos. And we’re going to go through it – you KNOW we are.  So, in the spirit of the Blue Moon Sisters mindset: Here, take my arm. Ready?  If you see flames erupting from my person, please put them out and I will do the same for you.  Deal?

This is a “no fear” operation.  You do what you MUST.  But that is the beauty of chaos.  No matter what it looks like to you and me, the result is perfection.  …You don’t see that?  Oh.  Well. Give it some time because chaos is a time-taker.  When the dust settles, you’ll see where you are, how far you’ve come, and what it took for you to get there.  Worth it?  Oh.  Hell yeah…

Now. Take my hand. Ready? No, no… don’t close your eyes. You’re gonna wanna see this so you can remember it correctly when you tell the story of “when.”  Damn the torpedoes.  Let’s go.

Busy day <3

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This post doesn’t seem to want to be written.  It keeps erasing itself.  Hmm… I think that’s a sign.

There is a lot on my plate today.  The first item checked off, is “coffee” because.. well… COFFEE.

Hoping to get some yard work done after my appointments. The dandelion bed out front has some perennials that are daring to survive.  I feel the need to assist them.

Not a lot of details today.  Just stuff I gotta do.  Say a prayer for me, and I’ll say one for you.  Where else can you get a deal like that?

Enjoy the weekend!  Looks to be pretty sweet ❤  Make it so!