Wow and wow. It appears I’ve been down for the count.
But what the heck is going on?
WTF? I am non-functional.
I just reread the last two blog posts of mine and truly… WTF?
This has been an eye opener for me. I am lost in a new kind of depression that I may not have experienced before. …and trust me – I have a LOT of experience with depression. But this is different. It’s apathy. Simple “i don’t care so what” apathy.
I dislike it very much.
I haven’t lost my faith, but I’m no longer hopeful. What is, is. What will be, will be. I wish I had a kick-start feature. That’s what I need.
The only thing I can think of to do is to back up and figure out where I went wrong. I think the best way to do that is to begin from a place of gratitude. I am grateful for so much with good reason to be. So I begin again, with gratitude.
I may be traveling this path on my own in many ways but I guess we all are. One foot in front of the other. If I reread this blog, perhaps I’ll find some inspiration. If I do, I’ll share it with you.
I know it’s all good. But that doesn’t mean it feels good in the moment. It just is.
Thank you for this day. I am grateful.
Smiles, and rainbows. Glitter and laughter. Blessings to us all.